I didn’t want to be the quiet girl anymore
I didn’t want to be the weird one or the watcher or the backup friend or the innocent little loser in the corner while everyone else got what I secretly craved like oxygen
I wanted to be the girl he ruined
The girl he broke
The girl he spanked in the f*****g rain just like he said
I swear I was moaning again
Just from the idea
And then the phone went silent
The line went dead
He didn’t say goodbye
He didn’t say wait
He didn’t say a single thing
He just left me with that threat still ringing in my ears and the sound of his engine still echoing through my bones and the knowledge that he was already on his way and that this wasn’t a game
I looked down at myself
Dress soaked
Skin flushed
Hair clinging to my cheeks like vines
My hands
