Chapter 4 Episode 4

As though I’ve pulled her from thin air by the strength of my thoughts, a door opens to the side. Katya’s slim arm darts out, grabs me, and hauls me in after her like Satan himself dragging me down into hell. Where the hell have you been?” she breathes in my face. “I’ve been looking for you everywhere!” This is so typical of Katya. Usually, I just laugh it off. But nothing about today is “usual.” Today, I’ve been forced into crashing a wedding, chased by security guards, trapped in an elevator. And the cherry on top of the s**t sundae? I completely and totally humiliated myself in front of the most beautiful man I’ve ever laid eyes on. That moan will be echoing in my nightmares for the rest of eternity. Katya takes a startled step back. Only then does she seem to notice that my clothes aren’t sitting right. “Your, uh… your dress is a little torn up there, babe.” “Thanks, Captain Obvious.” I grab the neckline and try to pull it into place. For a moment, it obeys—but as soon as I let go, it withers right back like a dying flower. “Okay, calm down. Let me try.” She toys with it for a second, then magically produces some safety pins from a box on the shelves at our elbows and works some witchcraft that fixes it right up. “There! Good as new.” She wiggles her eyebrows at me. “You wanna tell me why you’re running around half-dressed with s*x hair and smudged lipstick?” “Is my lipstick smudged?” I pivot on the spot in search of a mirror, but of course, the utility closet is fresh out of those. Just as well—I can’t bear looking at myself right now. I whimper and cover my face with my hands for a three-second pity party. It’s all we have time for. “We have to get the hell out of here. Now!” Katya has the audacity to look puzzled. “But the ceremony’s about to start!” I feel insane. Am I? Or is she? “For f**k’s sake, Kat—you seriously wanna watch your ex-boyfriend get married to the woman he cheated on you with?” “Yes! Yes, as a matter of fact, I do. Call me a masochist, but I wanna see it and I can’t do it alone.” “Since I decided everything’s more fun in twos,” she explains dismissively. Like that just about settles things, she opens the door a crack. “Look at all those rich assholes… Is that Leo?” “What other Leo matters?” she sighs as if I’m a lost cause. “Wouldn’t it be just a terrible tragedy if he and I met and we fell in love and got married in a ceremony twice as expensive as this one?” I roll my eyes. She’s joking—mostly. “Hate to break it to you, sweetheart, but you’re almost twenty-eight now. You’ve aged out of Leo’s dating pool.” “Have you seen my ass?” Katya counters, sticking it out for my benefit. What I’d prefer to see instead of my insane best friend’s posterior is some hope that we can get out of here unscathed. I peek over Katya’s shoulder. I don’t see Leo—or anyone else on the A-, B-, C-, or D-lists, for that matter. But I do see a veritable army of security guards herding straggling guests into the main ballroom. As the crowd filters past our little hiding spot, I pay closer attention to the guests themselves. Some of them look like important, respectable businessmen, but the vast majority look more like what I’d generously call “hardcore criminals.” We’re talking thick golden chains, tattoos on necks, knuckles, or both, and the kind of furtive, aggressive side-to-side glances that all but scream, I dare you to f**k with me. If this is the company the Kuznetsovs keep, it was a bad idea coming here today. “Kat… We need to leave. These are not people we want to mess with.” She snorts. “I was wondering when Nervous Nat would rear her head.” I could slap her. I truly could. I love her, but I’m this close to cold-c*****g her right across the face and dragging her limp body out of here. Before I can, she doubles down. “Playing it safe is gonna take you exactly nowhere. Come on—don’t you want to have adventures to look back on in your old age? Don’t you want experiences to share with your grandchildren one day?” “That’s making the assumption that I even get to old age. Which, judging by the men outside this utility closet, is a stretch.” “You need to stop being so damn scared of everything,” she says firmly. It’s the same tone she used when she was trying to get me to go skinny dipping in her boss’s pool that summer she was house-sitting for him. “You have to stop letting one tragedy be the crutch that keeps you from living your life!” I should’ve hit her when I had the chance. Because her words are as good as a slap across the face in their own right. Tragedy—that’s a funny word for what happened. It feels too clinical, too cold. Then again, what is the right way to talk about your parents getting dragged out of the car and murdered right in front of you? I bite my tongue to keep the tears from spilling over. There’s no way I’m gonna cry in front of her. “Low blow, Kat.” She sighs and clutches my hands. “I love you, you know that. And I just… I don’t want to see you stuck in the past, Natalia. Life happens here. Now. In the present.” I’m still a little tongue-tied, but the opening chords of the wedding march coming from the ballroom save me from having to figure out what to say. Katya squeezes my hands in hers once more. “We’re just gonna sneak in there, find a couple seats way in the back, and judge from afar. Okay? Nothing risky. Besides,” she adds, “if we leave now, we’re only gonna draw attention to ourselves. Best to just blend with the crowd until after the ceremony and then we can leave.” She makes a cross over her heart with her index finger. “Cross my heart and hope to die.” “Oh, you will die if you don’t keep that promise. I’ll make sure of it.” She laughs, grabs my wrist, and pulls me out of the utility closet. We join the last exodus of people streaming through the doors and find seats tucked alongside a looming onyx vase bursting with flowers. Everyone settles into their places. The conversations slowly dwindle. It doesn’t take me long to spot Andrey Kuznetsov. He’s standing at the head of the aisle, looking impossibly huge and impossibly gorgeous. A mountain in charcoal with eyes too bright to be real. My lips tingle with the flesh memory of his lips on mine. “Damn, is that Viktor’s brother?” Katya interrupts my guilty thoughts. “Forget Leo—I’ll take one of those, please.” It’s weird how instantly my hackles rise. I have absolutely no claim to that man. So why do I care if Katya is attracted to him? I don’t, I tell myself firmly. I don’t care one little bit. Luckily, Katya’s quickly distracted by the bride’s entrance. “Oh my God, look at her dress. My freaking grandma would’ve encouraged her to show a little more skin. Is she the bride or a nun?” I shoot her a glare. “Hush!” Katya rolls her eyes, but falls silent while the bride is walked down the aisle by her short, balding father. People rise to their feet as I try to make sense of the little lump that’s forming in my chest. What the hell is that? It’s only when my fingers reach instinctively for the locket around my neck that it hits me. I’ll never have this. A father to walk me down the aisle, someone to hand me off. Tragedy. There’s that word again. I hate it more and more every time. The bride looks like a shrinking violet. She’s pale as snow, with strawberry blonde hair styled into a tight chignon. “We’re veering into pedophile territory,” Katya jeers. “She looks like she’s twelve years old.” Viktor looks bored as he accepts her hand from his soon-to-be father-in-law. Then the ceremony starts. Katya chews at her nails as the officiant goes through the blandest marriage vows in recorded history. “Is it almost over, do you think?” Katya whispers. She nods once, her blue eyes glowing a little brighter. Up on the altar, the officiant plows into the home stretch. “Do you, Viktor Kuznetsov, take this woman to be your lawfully wedded wife?” Another nod, like Katya is preparing herself for something. It leaves a sinking feeling in my belly. Viktor opens his mouth, “I⁠—” I stare after Katya, my jaw hanging to the literal floor. I’m not the only one. The crowd twists in their chairs. And just like that, Katya has stolen the show. All eyes are on her—including Viktor’s. “Katya…?” he stutters in disbelief, while his bride lists to the side as though she’s in danger of fainting at any moment. “Viktor Kuznetsov is a liar and a cheater!” Katya continues loudly. Rather than be deterred by the eyes on her, it’s like the audience is giving her life. “He prowls the city at night looking for his next conquest. And trust me, he’s made many!”