G I O V A N N I
It's been a few days since I got the most life changing news, and I've been miserable. In the thirty years of my life, I've never been so afraid.
Fatherhood was something I've always feared, and never wanted. My own father was a failure, and the example that I was taught growing up, was that a man could be a man only when he was the one raising the kids.
I grew up witnessing my father's anger issues, and his temper. He was the reason why I feared him, and his words always stuck with me. He always unleashed his anger and frustration on us. On me. On my sister. On Dominic.
And I promised myself that I would never become him.
That I would never be like him.
And now, the very fear of having a kid of my own, was the very fear of turning out to be just like my father.
And
