RONAN
I couldn't think straight and that was the honest problem with all of this.
I missed Kade. Which was pathetic, genuinely pathetic, because I was a grown man and an Alpha and the last thing I should have been doing in the middle of everything falling apart around me was sitting with this hollow ache in my chest like a teenager who had lost his best friend.
But that was exactly what it was and I had stopped pretending otherwise somewhere between the third sleepless night and the moment I had made the decision I was now stuck with. Missing Kade felt like missing air and I was running out of it fast.
The worst part was that what I was doing right now might actually hurt him. No, it would.
And I had turned that over in my head every single night for the past two weeks and still com
