Maya I have never killed someone up close before. Those men we shot when we were ambushed, were different. This was just me, slitting a man's throat so he wouldn't sexually assault me. I saw the light leave his eyes. I expected to feel remorse, but all I felt was relief that I was able to stop him. I will do anything to survive and get back to Asher and his family. The dead man falls onto the bed, after I threw him off me. I have to move. I don't know how long before Anya comes back to check on me. I need to know how many of them there are, and if I am able to kill that b***h and make it out alive. I have too much to live for now. I got out of bed and stumbled a bit. My entire body feels like it's made of lead. I have to snap out of this. I checked the man for more weapons, but all he ha

