Neil shook his head, looking at the ground.
"You misunderstood," he mumbled. "I said that Colleen would never forgive me for what I'd done. I didn't mean the drinking and gambling. As a matter of fact, the only time I was ever clean was the few sweet years I had with her. She's pi.ssed at me because I left. Well, that's what she thinks anyway. She thinks I got scared of having our second child and fu.cking ran. For years, I've been trying to find her again. All on my fu.cking own. I needed to explain things to her, but she won't fu.cking listen! Women, am I right?! I even got her walls to break down enough to let me between her legs again, but back in her heart? Fu.cking forget it. She won't even let me try to explain."
I stared at Neil, dumbfounded. He just blabbered away like we were h
