Gabriela
All I feel is darkness and despair.
It has my limbs feeling numb as I walk back to Redwood, not bothering to shift. Instead, I punish myself by walking through the forest with my bare feet and the now-ratty clothes that I'd been dressed in by Elijah's staff.
I wish I was surprised. I wish that Elijah rejecting me didn't simply reaffirm everything that I've been thinking over the past few weeks—that I'm not good enough for him and that he'd only see me as what I truly am: a disgusting burden.
I am my father's daughter after all, a blight on this Earth. I'm no more worthy of anything than the dirt beneath my feet.
The disgust on my mate's face, and from his staff and the enforcers who'd eventually thrown me out, had been devastating. I'd built up in my head for so long that the
