"Not yet," I said. "I'm not—" I stopped. "Cameron has been managing so much. Because of me, because of all of it. I'm not ready to hand him one more thing I'm responsible for giving him."
"He wouldn't see it as—" Lucian started.
"I know he wouldn't," I said. "That's part of why I'm not ready. Because he'd take it on completely and I don't want to be the reason for that right now."
I looked at the swings, at Drew doing the precise mechanics of swinging.
"I'm going to figure out how to get to Nick. I'm working on what that looks like. But I want it to be mine first. My plan, my reaching. Something I've done rather than something that's been organized on my behalf." I paused. "Does that make sense?"
"Yes," Dante said. He'd been quiet through all of it, which was his own version but als
