Aaron
I have a bad taste in my mouth. I feel like I ruined everything with Myriam. After returning from our walk to the cathedral, everything went to hell. The connection, the good atmosphere, the jokes—everything vanished. And I think I know the reason. The fear of moving too fast made me put the brakes on, but I don't think I handled it well. Now, I'm trapped in a horrible feeling of regret, wishing I could turn back time and act differently.
I know I've clarified countless times that we're just friends, but a feeling akin to jealousy has taken hold of me. I thought she wouldn't notice that I was avoiding touching her, or maybe she wouldn't care, but I underestimated her. Of course, she noticed, and of course, she cared. I didn't want to confuse her by mixing affection with desire, and
