I'm determined that I'm not giving up though. I will make it back home one way or another. I have my baby to think of and until I'm told differently and show differently then he's fine and he's still with me. I have to survive for him. I don't know why I think that it's a boy all of a sudden but something is telling me that I have to survive so that my son will. So whatever that voice is, I'm going to listen to it and survive.
Of course that now gets me singing Destiny Child's song Survivor out loud at the top of my lungs now. "I'm a survivor, I'm not gon' give up, I'm not gon' stop, I'm gon' work harder, I'm a survivor, I'm gonna make it, I will survive, keep on survivin." I sang the chorus over and over and started switching back and forth between songs.
I was so tired that I was sin
