It was different with Chayton. Just like it was with all of them. Chayton was bossy and sly. There were also fewer layers between us than with Tae. Chayton only had on a pair of sweatpants. I don't even think he was wearing underwear, and me... That was the first night I went to sleep in only a T-shirt. Which meant that only those sweatpants separated us.
Something about it all was so hot to me. Chayton calling me out for being with Tae, using that to get what he wanted. Having his hands all over me... His lips, God, his lips.
I let them all do whatever they wanted to me back then. I was foolish. I thought that I was getting attention from them. Positive attention. With how sh.it everything was at those times, it just... felt so nice to have them close again. Even if it meant giving them
