"Is that true, Bly?" CG asked me. "You tryna gain some kinda control back because you hate how much you like it?"
"I-I... shouldn't," I stuttered. "I shouldn't ever like it."
I went through similar feelings with Sean. At first, before things got bad. I liked everything he was doing to me and hated myself for it. He helped me see that just because I was se.xually abused didn't mean that I was broken. I could take control of that, of myself. I could learn what felt right, what felt good. It didn't make me less of a person, or weak, or damaged to still like se.x after what I went through. It just meant that I was finally comfortable with myself and my partner.
That fu.cking bas.tard. He helped me through my trauma to give himself a bigger ego. It did help me, and I hate that it was him. I
