Ethan
The place is ready, the flowers, the chairs, the lighting. Everything in its place, but I… I feel like I'm not truly here, not until I see her.
My family is there, familiar faces, voices, congratulations, pats on the back, but it all feels distant and vague.
It feels strange to see my parents only on special occasions, or events so important that they require us both to be there at the same time.
That has to change too. I don't want to continue being so… so disconnected from the special people in my life, telling them how important they are, telling them I love them…
Today is such an emotional day that I've even thought about it, I've even reflected on it, like a kind of background noise.
…
I'm standing, waiting. And then… The music changes, my heart stops for a second.
And
