Clara
"For nonsense, only nonsense..."
The words come out of my mouth... but they don't feel entirely mine. Ethan doesn't respond right away.
And that... It makes me more aware of what I just did.
Minimize it, reduce it. As if it didn't matter, as if it hadn't affected me.
I feel his gaze on me, I don't need to turn to know.
"It didn't seem like silly things," he finally says.
His voice is still calm, but there's something underneath. Something firmer... I purse my lips slightly, looking straight ahead.
"Really, Ethan... It's nothing."
I insist. And now yes... I feel it.
That small internal break, because it is something. And a lot.
But I don't want to take it there, I don't want this... becomes something else, not now. Not when everything starts to feel good.
Silence settles i
