"Something's happened to you. Somewhere, sometime, in the past, something happened; something you've never told me. Whatever it was, it's made you... not bitter, bitter's the wrong word. It's made you cut off part of yourself from other people. I can see it in the way you act towards the guys you're with... not all of you is present; you always hold a part of you back. I'm worried that if you never let go of that reserve that you'll never be truly happy."
Denials die in my throat, and a shudder runs through me. I know David notices because he reaches out to touch me; giving me a confused look as I pull back out of reach.
I take a deep, painful breath.
"You know me too well, David."
"Em?" he says.
"I've loved someone for a long time," I say, quietly. "I can't have that person. I have t
