I told myself I would never need them since the outfits were only suitable for me for church, but I needed them, just in case. Those outfits, and the fact I never wore them, felt like my way of telling Mom and Dad I'm fine with my life, even if they thought I couldn't be. I'd be getting a few more, similar outfits now since I'd be wearing them regularly from now on. My grandfather, Dad's dad, was a non-celibate Russian Orthodox priest in a small church in Rostov-on-Don, Russia, my family's home town, and his brother a celibate priest in a different, larger church in the same town before he was promoted to bishop and moved to Moscow. Their uncle had been an archbishop in the Russian Orthodox Church. The claim is that my family has had clergy in the Orthodox Church in every generation go

