Which is actually happening right now.
I should be there and not here with Isaiah getting drunk in the middle of the fu.cking woods. I'm not even sure why I'm not. It's not like I wasn't invited, or like me and Roman don't get along, for the most part. I think I'm just... lonely. Seeing Sab so happy with someone makes me happy, but it also makes me feel hollow.
Sure, I get my d***k wet most nights, but I've yet to find a woman that I can trust. And that makes me hot and heavy. I'm not sure if a girl like that even exists for me. Not many women are trustworthy either. It'd be like trying to find a needle in a haystack and then praying it doesn't poison you when it nicks you. Does that even make sense?
I just want what Sab and Roman have. They're adorable, and you can tell that he real
