Today is going to be different though. It's Naddy's 17th birthday and I have something planned for her. Something small. Something for just the two of us. Something that has me a bit nervous, but I hope to f***k it helps her forgive me quicker. As much as I love her angry looks, I fu.cking miss her smile more. Not that she doesn't smile, I just miss that smile aimed at me. I miss the light she would bring to my dark world.
"You sure about this?" Cutter asked as he helped me pack up a picnic basket his mom let me borrow. "Thought you wanted her to stay away."
"I just wanted her to stop crushing on me," I replied. "I fu.cked up. I won't be fu.cking up like that again."
"So.... you're trying to... date her?" he asked confused.
"What? No," I rushed out, giving him an incredulous look. "She
