I walked out to the back porch to stand until I heard her leave. As I went, I could hear her crying. And as much as it killed me to walk away. But I knew that I couldn't handle her giving me bullshit excuses for why she left me. It was f*****g killing me that she left me as she did. I have loved her for years. I wanted to marry her and spend the rest of my life with her. I wanted a family with her. f**k! I was so f*****g happy when I thought that we were going to have a baby.
I sat down on a chair on my back porch, and as much as I f*****g hate to admit it, I f*****g cried like a f*****g baby. I listened to her car pull away first, and then I cried for the first time since this s**t with her happened. And I f*****g needed it. Since I was sitting with my head down crying, I didn't hear wh
