Chapter 5 - Desperate Biker At My Door.

'Hearts can break, yes, hearts can break, sometimes I think it would be better if we died when they did but we don't' ~ Stephen King Daniella's P.O.V. I wish I could agree with the Dalai Lama when he said that we shouldn't allow the behaviours of other people to destroy our inner peace because maybe if I did and I blocked out the massive nuisance that is my ex-boyfriend, then I'd be able to find some kind of peace and end this awful day once and for all but no, I couldn't do that. I guess, I'm just a glutton for punishment because why else wouldn't I block out the noise and go to sleep if I weren't?. BANG!!, BANG!!, BANG!!. "DANIELLA!!" BANG!!, BANG!!, BANG!!. "DANIELLA BABY, OPEN THE DOOR!!...PLEASE BABY, OPEN THE f*****g DOOR!!" Dante continued to growl at the top of his lungs whilst furiously pounding his angry fists against my front door like an irate wolf trying to break in and scare the little piggy inside of it. Wait. Did I just call myself a little piggy?. That was rude of me. "DANI!!" My angry ex once again growled causing me to flinch from the intensity of his voice which is the first reaction that I've had to anything ever since I came home and collapsed my ass on the floor in my bedroom feeling completely and utterly numbed out by everything. It's been a few hours since I arrived back home after my whole world had imploded and I felt the last piece of my broken heart which was holding on by a tiny, little thread being shattered into smithereens by the very man who had swore to protect it and I've honestly never felt more lost and confused in my entire life than I do right now. I mean, I felt lost and confused before all of this happened but at least I still had Dante, his sister Rosa Maria who is also my best friend and their family to help guide and support me through all of this but now I don't which makes me feel so alone because the DeLuca's where my extended family who were always there for me like my real family where but now I've lost them just like I've lost my parents. "DANIELLA!!" Dante once again growled which was followed by several very loud bangs which startled the hell out of me because as Katt Williams once said, they happened one right after the motherfucking other and each one felt like it was making my whole home vibrate and shake. What Dante did next made me feel nervous because I honestly thought that he was gonna break into my home if he continued to pound on my door the way that he is, especially since he seems to be getting angrier with every punch that he lands. I know that you're all probably thinking girl, just go and talk to him and get it over and done with or call the police and have him trespassed so that he can't bother me anymore which I probably should do but for some reason, I couldn't because I felt frozen to the spot. "DANIELLA!!" BANG!!. "OPEN!!" BANG!!. "THE!!" BANG!!. "f*****g!!" BANG!!. "DOOR!!" Jesus Christ. I thought to myself feeling nervous and annoyed as I attempted to stand up from the floor which took me some doing because of how stiff and cold my body felt but I eventually managed to get my ass up, swaying as I did because of how lightheaded I was. Anyway, I was about to march my fine ass downstairs and give this motherfucker a piece of my mind but then suddenly, out of nowhere, my dark room filled with a bright light as the sound of a car pulling up onto my driveway was heard in the quiet nights air. "DANTE!!...DANTE, STOP!!" My former best friend shouted at her brother. I know that I probably shouldn't call Rosa Maria my former best friend until I've talked to her and I've heard her side of the story but if I'm being honest with you, I really don't see the point in me waiting. The reason why is because I told the entire DeLuca family including Dante's parents, siblings and even his uncle Luigi, auntie Rita and his cousins about my hatred for bikers and also anyone or anything that are affiliated with them because of what my sperm donor father did to my mom. They knew everything including who my biological father was and also what motorcycle club he was affiliated with, they knew all of this from the very beginning of our relationship and instead of telling me who they were, they chose to lie to me and hide their association with both my dad and the club from me which is something that I just can't forgive. "Dante, you need to stop" Rosa shouted as I watched her run up to her brother via the ring doorbell camera on my phone which I had opened up the moment I heard Dante's bike ride up onto my driveway. I know I probably shouldn't have done this but I couldn't help myself. Like I said, I'm a glutton for punishment, not to mention, I'm a young woman who is grieving and isn't thinking straight, so leave me alone. "Rosa's right, brother, you need to stop before someone calls the police" "f**k THE POLICE, DEAN!!" Dante growled at his best friend who is also Rosa's boyfriend. "You won't be saying that if they actually show up, D, now come on, let's get you home, ok" Rosa said as she grabbed hold of his arm which he quickly shrugged off. "I'm not leaving until I've talked with my woman and I know she's ok" "I think it's safe to say that she's not ok, brother" Dean says with a sigh. "Dani's suffered a great loss and she had to do one of the hardest things a human being can ever do and buried both of her parents on the same day which is bad enough but then she found out that the love of her life, the man who's been her anchor through everything and also his family have been lying to her face for the past three years" "I didn't have a choice" Dante growled as he rested his forehead against my door. A part of me felt bad for him and I wanted nothing more than to go down there and hug him but then I stopped when I remembered what a lying asshole he is. "I knew I'd lose Dani if I told her who I was and I couldn't allow that to happen" "Well, I hate to say it, brother but I think you've gone and lost her now..." "NO!!" Dante growled as he resumed banging his fist on my door. "DANIELLA!!, OPEN THE f*****g DOOR OR I SWEAR TO f*****g GOD, I'LL..." "You'll do nothing" Rosa said sounding stern as she stood in front of her brother which seemed to piss him off. "Movie, Rosie" "No" She said earning herself a glare from Dante. "I said move, Rosa Maria or I'll move you myself" "I'd love to see you try, Dante" Rosa growled back at him which I could tell she instantly regretted doing because her beautiful face had automatically morphed from anger to guilt in a split second. "Look Dante, I understand you wanna see Dani and you want to make things right with her but you can't do that right now" "Why not?" He growled lowly at her. "Because you're both in a highly emotional state at the moment, that's why, Dante" She growled back at him. "Not to mention that you and Daniella aren't in the right headspace to have any kind of a conversation with each other because you're both so amped up right now" "She's got a point, D, if you guys were to go head to head right now then I guarantee that one of you will end up in the hospital and the other will end up in jail and the latter won't be you" "What makes you so sure, Dean?" Dante asked with a scoff. "Because an angry and heartbroken woman is one thing...an angry, heartbroken and grieving woman is a whole other demon, my friend" Dean tells Dante who let out a sigh whilst running a hand through his dark hair. "So, what do you propose I do, huh?" He asked sounding defeated as Rosie sighed. "Go home...go home and give Dani some space so that you both can calm down and then maybe you guys can talk" Pfft, that's never gonna happen. We're done, D.O.N.E and Dante knows this. This is why he's refusing to leave my property until he's talked to me because he knows that I'm a very stubborn woman who won't see or talk to him again after tonight and a man like Dante DeLuca can't have that, especially not with me, a woman who he's always referred to as his and has been overly possessive and protective of from the moment we first met each other all those years ago. At first, I didn't mind the way he acted with me because I was a dumb teenager who thought that it was exciting and sexy to have a boyfriend who was possessive of me and would always call me his like the dangerous guys you read about in books or see in movies do but now I know that it's because Dante's a biker who saw me as nothing more than his property that he can't ever let go and that's why he's doing all of this. It's not because he loves or cares about me, it's because I'm his possession who he's quickly losing control of and he can't allow that to happen. "Rosie's right, bro, just give Dani some time and then try and talk to her when you're both calm and more level headed" "You're right" Dante says and I sighed with relief. "Just give me a minute and I'll leave" He says whilst looking towards the camera as Dean nods his head. "Sixty seconds and then I'm dragging your ass away from here myself, I don't care if you are my prez, D" Dean says before heading over to the cage with Rosie. Dante watched them as they walked away before turning back to face the camera and I swear my stupid self almost caved and went down there when I saw how sexy and guilty he looked. "Kitten, I don't know if you're watching this but if you are, then I want you to know how sorry I am" He said with a slight whimper. "I know that I should've been honest with you and told you from the very beginning who I was and who my MC are but I couldn't because I knew that I'd lose you if I did and I couldn't allow that to happen, baby" Dante says as several stray tears fell down my cheeks. I didn't want to cry because if I'm being honest with you, I'm fed up of f*****g crying. It's all I've done ever since I found out about my parent's deaths and I'm so f*****g tired of it but I couldn't stop the tears from falling because I'm a stupid fool who is madly in love with a biker who I swore I'd never fall for and now I've lost him forever because of that very reason. Unfortunately, the tears wouldn't stop flowing, in fact, they got worse and I felt myself sobbing like a baby after what he said next. "I love you, Daniella...I love you so f*****g much, baby" He said with a whimper. "You're my entire f*****g world, Dani...I know you don't believe me, kitten but I swear to god on everything that I own that I'm telling you the truth, I just..." He drifts off as he closes his eyes and lets out a breath. "I just hope that you'll give me a chance one day to show you just how sorry I am and how much I love you because this can't be the end of us, it just can't" Dante said as he gave one last lingering look towards my front door before leaving. It was only after they were all gone and I once again found myself surrounded by darkness and silence that I finally let it all out and I allowed myself to feel all of the anger, sadness, pain and regret that I've been holding onto for god knows how long which felt so good to do but I knew that it wasn't gonna be a recurring thing. Tonight, I'm gonna cry and grieve for everything that I've lost but come tomorrow, I'll have no other choice but to put on my big girl panties and try and find a way to move forward with my life on my own. It won't be easy but it's something that I'll get through, one step at a time.