Meadow POV
For the first time in five years, guilt overwhelms me. I was in the firm belief that everything that I did was because Ivan cared more about his relationships with Dimitri and Danica than about me. That he would choose them over me and the baby growing in my belly. I deprived him of watching Ava grow because I let fear cloud my judgment. A warm hand on my cheek has my eyes meeting Ivan's.
"Tell me what you're thinking, malyska," he says. "I'm sorry for keeping Ava from you. I know you said you aren't angry, but you should be. I was so afraid of those two and that you would side with them. I should have been braver. I should have raged when I found you in bed with that b**ch, and you wouldn't have lost so much time with our daughter."
"No, don't do that. Don't second guess w
