Sh.it, why did I leave her like that? No, why did I even do any of that in the first place? Wasn't I the one who told Cyprian we had to stay away from her? What the hell am I doing?
This damn bond. I've underestimated it at every turn. At first, I ignored it. Then I basked in it, taking advantage of Bexley's little se.x spurts. All to go right back into denial because of a bunch of what ifs. And now look at me. I can't make up my mind.
I can't stand to be away from Bexley these days. Not even when I tell her I'm going somewhere. I just hover constantly. After the night the three of us had together, the bond has gotten a lot stronger. I wonder if that full version of Bexley knew that was going to happen.
Every day I try to convince myself that I'm doing the right thing. That I can be a
