My experience with Tony in the hotel room had really crossed a line from which I did not want to return. The excitement I felt while it was happening, and again the many times I relived the encounter was something I wanted to experience again and again. My life was getting complicated.
I had a husband, and although it was really in name only, I wasn't ready to change things just now. I had a daughter at home as well: I loved and cherished her more than anything else. I also had a career, one that I would no doubt have to depend on when the time came to leave my husband. Now, I added the most curious aspect of my life, my relationship with Tony. It wasn't my whole life, but it was a place of escape and at times it was thrilling.
There was no one I could explain all this to. My girlfriends
