Jay
I am currently watching the second movie in the Harry Potter series, trying to make sense of my mixed emotions. I still can't believe I am pregnant. It was not planned at all, but it is so welcome. I feel a little conflicted. I am ecstatic about the baby, but I feel like I am betraying my son and his memory by feeling this way. Don't get me wrong, I know I am being irrational, but I can't help the way I feel. The pain and longing for him is still very raw.
But I am also very worried. If this person that is after me comes for me and manages to get me, I will have to defend myself and keep the baby safe. I will have to be careful. I can't lose this baby too. My heart can take a lot, but I am only human. I didn't even realize the movie was over and got such a fright when Enzo called me.
