That was a side I saved for my little side hustle. Not the security business. The online persona I pretended to be. My onlyfans page. The place where I whisper my darkest fantasies to strangers and they pay me for more. The place that begs me to act out everything I say with a partner instead of creatively jerking myself off for them.
I don't. Never have. Because I haven't found a woman worthy of being my partner yet. Not enough to enter this world I created.
I wanted someone that truly drove me wild. I didn't want to put on an act. I wanted it to be real and raw. I made peace with the fact that I'd probably never have that.
And now look at me. I'm jacking off while thinking of those fantasies. This time they starred a woman within my reach. One that will never ever know about this sid
