{Rina}
I still can't believe that we made it!
The fact that I can see two babies surprised me more than I could imagine. I thought I was going to lose them. I thought I would fail them.
I was selfish, all I did was think about my pain. I didn't remember that I had other reasons to survive my pain.
Every time I tried, I failed.
After the second near-miscarriage incident, the doctor warned me of the implications if a third one occurred, but I still couldn't get over my depression despite trying.
I miss Carl so much that I want to run back to him, but I couldn't.
Every time the thought of going back crosses my mind, something in me reminds me that he doesn't want me. He said so himself.
He doesn't want the babies. I had no reason to go back if he won't accept us.
I tried, I re
