Ethan appears surrounded by associates, I'm beside him smiling, elegant, perfect. And Clara… Clara is a few steps behind, almost out of frame.
I remember that night… God. I remember it perfectly. It was one of the first times I understood something.
That I could get close to him, that I could take up space, that I could make myself noticed…
At events, he would arrive with her, but I was the one who stayed by his side. It was my name that was called out in the speeches. That woman's expressions were a poem to me; I'll never forget them. I felt powerful, I felt like I was in control of everything, even that relationship.
And then… I find another photograph.
This one makes me laugh because I remember exactly what happened. A charity event, or an important meeting… I don't know… I was wea
